Well, the last couple months have been interesting to say the least. About a week after getting back from San Diego at the end of March, I was unfortunately let go from my job out in Texas. That led to the job search and immediate stress. However, the stress was put on hold for a couple weeks because a couple close friends from Clovis ended up coming out to Texas to visit me. But, like all trips, they have to end. So, when they went back to Clovis, it was back to the grind of finding a job and figuring out what I was going to do. Although it isn't REAL hard to find a job out in Texas, it is hard to find one to sustain my own place to live and bills like my previous job did. It was starting to get me worried. Would I be able to make rent? Will I have to move in with friends? Will I have to move back to California? These were all options that I had bouncing around in my head, along with a few other ideas.
After about a month of job searching out in Texas, I made the decision to take my talents back to Clovis. This was a hard decision for me. Most people that I talk to on a daily basis probably couldn't tell that it was such a hard decision for me, but nevertheless, it was. I loved where I lived, and I will never forget the friends I made out there. I know that most people would not see it the way I do, but the biggest reason that it was such a hard decision for me to come back home was because I felt that if I come back home, that I had failed. I know that getting fired happens, and we can't always change that outcome. But, making such a huge life change only to be back here 6 months later made me feel like I couldn't do it.
Now, I know that being home is good for me. I have a lot less bills, and less to stress about. Not to mention, Clovis heat in the summer is WAY BETTER than Houston heat in the summer. I'll take 105 with no humidity over 100 and 98% humidity any day of the year. Oh, and by the way, that's 98% humidity without rain!! Anyway, I feel like this stop back in Clovis is what I need to refuel my self esteem, motivation, and my bank account before my next big life adventure. Which, may or may not be right here in Clovis, CA. Those who have spent any extended period of time with me know that I am kind of a "go with the flow" type of person. My life, job, or passion could take me anywhere, and I would probably be ready to jump at the chance. I am just so glad that I have family and friends that show me so much support in everything that I do.
So, keep a lookout for me here in Clovis. I'm always around. Those out in Texas, I hope to see you all soon. I miss you.
Until next time...
Trevor
