Turning over a new leaf...

Well, just like the way I start almost every blog post, I'm sorry its been so long since I've written on this. Since my last post, many things have happened and I am excited about all of them. I turned 30 in October, I went to Houston for almost 2 weeks from the last week of October through the first week of November, and when I got back from Houston I started my own lawn and landscaping business.

Turning 30 was pretty cool. I don't normally make a big deal out of my birthday, so it wasn't too crazy. It was just nice being around some friends and family. It was refreshing how accepting I was of turning 30.

My time in Houston was a lot of fun. I actually drove from Clovis, CA to Houston, TX in 34 hours. I went for my best friend Alisha's wedding to, her now husband, Patrick. I hadn't seen them since I left Houston back in May. It was so crazy how it felt like I had never left. As much as I loath Houston traffic, I welcomed it as I entered the city limits. I left for California the morning after the wedding while Alisha and Patrick were on the way to Jamaica for their honeymoon. It was so nice to see them and all of their families again. I miss you all. But it was time to go. On the way back to Clovis, I cut my drive time by 4 hours. It only took me 30 hours to get back. I didn't speed at all, I just cut my sleep time from 6 hours on the way out to Texas to 2 hours on the way back from Texas. It's amazing how much rest you can get in 2 hours when sleeping in your car at a rest area in Phoenix. As much as I was sad to leave Houston again, I was happy to be back in California.

Starting my own business has been extremely exciting. It's a lawn and landscaping service. Everyone around me has been so supportive and helpful from giving me paper for my flyers to helping me fold those flyers to donating new and old gardening tools to me to help me get started and make sure I have everything I need. Thank you so much to everyone who has helped, supported, and prayed for me. I couldn't have started this without you guys. I'm looking forward to a successful year for Deanie's Lawn & Landscaping Service in 2012.

But the most important thing that has happened to me is that I have rekindled my faith in Christ. I didn't ever not have faith, but I haven't been living like I have faith. So, I made a choice to start making right decisions. That means everything from the way I talk to the actions I make to things I put in my body. It's time for me start living right according to my faith. Not for anyone else but myself and God.

I'm really excited about this new leaf I'm turning over. For too long, I've been leaving God out of major decisions in my life. I'm tired of walking against God and ready to start walking with him.

Thank you to everyone for all the support you've given and all the support I know you'll give in the future. I love you all. Happy New Year!

Until next time...

Trevor Dean

Getting into the Swing of Things

Hello all! I know it's been a while, but I must say that I'm happy to be writing again. Things have slowed down considerably for me. I'm still looking for steady work, but doing some little jobs here and there to help pay some of the bills. I know there are jobs out there, I just gotta be patient and consistent in my search. There has been a lot going on in the last few months. Back in July, I was able to go on a few trips. The first trip was a camping trip with all of my brothers, my dad, and my oldest nephew. My nephew had enlisted in the military a couple months earlier and was getting ready to head off to basic training on August 15th. So, all the men in my family decided to surprise him with this trip. It was an awesome way of spending some time with him before he left, and letting him know how proud we are of him and how much we love him. He's now fully engulfed in basic training and loving every minute of it. The other trip I was able to go on was to the Gilroy Garlic Festival, Santa Cruz, and Monterey. I know those all sound like individual trips, but Jennifer and I hit up all 3 in the same weekend. Day 1 was the Garlic Festival, and I have to say that I had a blast. This was my first time there, and I look forward to going again. Good food, awesome music, and tons of people. Day 2 was the Santa Cruz Beach Boardwalk. This day didn't go as smoothly as day 1. The traffic was horrible and the Boardwalk was packed. I've never seen so many people there before. I will never go on a weekend again. Nevertheless, when we were there, we actually had a good time. It's always nice to be around the beach. Day 3, we drove to Monterey. First, we went to the aquarium. We spent a good 5 hours walking around to the different exhibits and areas of the aquarium. I had never appreciated it like I did that day. It's funny how much more you appreciate things when you do them as an adult than when you do them as a young kid. After the aquarium, we walked around Cannery Row for a little while, and ended up at Bubba Gump's for dinner. It was a great end to an amazing weekend. I'm so glad I was able to go. I've started playing volleyball again. It isn't super competitive yet, but it still allows me to play. Hopefully I'll be back to my normal competition soon. I can't say enough how much I've missed volleyball since I've left Texas. It felt like part of me had died. It was about time I resurrected that part of me again. I've also started writing music again. I know I was never very accomplished in either music or writing, but it has helped me through hard times in my past, and it is proving to do the same for me now. With every verse and melody I write, I know I'm getting better. Maybe sometime in the future I'll put out a follow up album with my good friend Adam Johnson in a reunion of Ju-C Dish! Haha. Not sure, but we'll see. For right now, music is just keeping me sane. That's about it for right now. Hopefully I'll get back to this blog a little more frequently than I have been. Thanks for reading. Until next time... Trevor Dean

Back to Clovis

Well, the last couple months have been interesting to say the least. About a week after getting back from San Diego at the end of March, I was unfortunately let go from my job out in Texas. That led to the job search and immediate stress. However, the stress was put on hold for a couple weeks because a couple close friends from Clovis ended up coming out to Texas to visit me. But, like all trips, they have to end. So, when they went back to Clovis, it was back to the grind of finding a job and figuring out what I was going to do. Although it isn't REAL hard to find a job out in Texas, it is hard to find one to sustain my own place to live and bills like my previous job did. It was starting to get me worried. Would I be able to make rent? Will I have to move in with friends? Will I have to move back to California? These were all options that I had bouncing around in my head, along with a few other ideas.

After about a month of job searching out in Texas, I made the decision to take my talents back to Clovis. This was a hard decision for me. Most people that I talk to on a daily basis probably couldn't tell that it was such a hard decision for me, but nevertheless, it was. I loved where I lived, and I will never forget the friends I made out there. I know that most people would not see it the way I do, but the biggest reason that it was such a hard decision for me to come back home was because I felt that if I come back home, that I had failed. I know that getting fired happens, and we can't always change that outcome. But, making such a huge life change only to be back here 6 months later made me feel like I couldn't do it.

Now, I know that being home is good for me. I have a lot less bills, and less to stress about. Not to mention, Clovis heat in the summer is WAY BETTER than Houston heat in the summer. I'll take 105 with no humidity over 100 and 98% humidity any day of the year. Oh, and by the way, that's 98% humidity without rain!! Anyway, I feel like this stop back in Clovis is what I need to refuel my self esteem, motivation, and my bank account before my next big life adventure. Which, may or may not be right here in Clovis, CA. Those who have spent any extended period of time with me know that I am kind of a "go with the flow" type of person. My life, job, or passion could take me anywhere, and I would probably be ready to jump at the chance. I am just so glad that I have family and friends that show me so much support in everything that I do.

So, keep a lookout for me here in Clovis. I'm always around. Those out in Texas, I hope to see you all soon. I miss you.

Until next time...

Trevor

Recent Developments

Hello all! I know this is a little out of the ordinary, being that I just had a post last week, but I figured that it was necessary that I inform you all on some recent developments in my life. As many of you know, my job out here in Texas as been stressing me out for a couple months now, and it has it has been the topic of many of the personal conversations I've had with some of you, individually. Well, as of last Wednesday, April 6, my employer let me go along with my great friend Alisha. Although I feel like the reason given to us by them was less than honest, there isn't anything I can do about it now. All I can say is that I know that our experience and love for the game of volleyball was an asset to that volleyball club. It saddens me that we were never given the opportunities to fully show the benefits of that experience. But, like I said before, there is nothing that I can do about that now. I can only move on and learn from my experiences there, good or bad.

I am not one to dwell on things in the past anymore. I used to spend lots of time thinking about the past, and what I could have done differently. The only thing that brought me was depression and stress. So, over the past few years, I have taught myself to live in the now, plan for the future, and only trouble myself with those things that I have control over. So, as I say farewell to this job, I say hello and look forward to future endeavors. I truly believe that getting fired from this job is a blessing in disguise. I know that it will open the door to something better than anything I could have experienced there. I'm a firm believer that all things work out if we choose to make them work out. And I choose to make it work out. Thank you to everyone who has been so supportive in all of this. Your opinions, support, and advice has been invaluable.

On a happier note, I am only 2 days away from welcoming two of my closest friends to Texas. I have been looking forward to this since the first ticket was bought to come out here back about two and a half months ago. It's always nice to have some familiar faces around. We are going to have a blast. Guardians reunited!!! We Will Always Be Guardians!! I can't wait to see you both.

Thanks again to everyone for the love and support you have all shown me throughout my life, and most of all over the last 6 months. I am eternally grateful. I look forward to seeing you all soon. Please keep in touch. Love you all!!

Until next time...

Trevor

One Crazy Month

Hello all! I'm sorry that I missed my normal "Day Before the Last Day of the Month" Post. There has just been so much going on, so I'm just now getting around to it.

The first of the craziness started about 3 weeks ago, when my great friend and coworker Alisha got engaged to her boyfriend after one of our big volleyball tournaments. It was just a matter of time before it happened, and lucky for him, she was completely surprised. Alisha's parents were in town last week to help her prepare for the wedding and to celebrate it with the newly engaged couple. I was so happy to see them when I came back from California. It had been way too long. Thank you Mr. and Mrs. McKee for being so supportive in everything I have done, and will continue to do.

We are in the heart of our volleyball season out here, and things are going crazy. I've been busy hosting and organizing tournaments at the facility, and so far they've all been going pretty well. I must say, I do put on some pretty amazing tournaments. I can honestly say that this job has been giving me all sorts of experience. Not all of it has been the best experience, but when it's all said and done, all experience is beneficial.

I am so grateful that I was able to go back to California for about 5 days at the end of March for an awesome Bachelor Party Weekend for one of my good buddies. We were down in San Diego for 4 days, and that's the only details I'm going to divulge about that, ha ha. I was, however, able to spend a little time with some friends and family for the short time I was in Clovis. The whole weekend was an experience that I needed at a crucial time in my life. Thank you to everyone who has listened to me and keeps me in their thoughts and prayers. I love you all, and had a great time seeing everyone. I absolutely can't wait for the next time when we're all reunited again. That is one of the recurring thoughts and daydreams I have every day.

On April 14, I will be joined by my fellow Guardians of the Night, Cochina (Jennifer) and Cochino (Brent) out here in Texas for a fun filled 11 days. All the Guardians back together again. It will be so great to have a little piece of home out here with me, so far away from where home really is. I can't wait to see you two. Ten days and counting!

That's about it for right now, but I'm sure that I'll have much more to tell you in the near future. Thanks again for everyone who continues to support me, both home in Clovis and out here in Texas. Please keep in touch. I love you all.

Until next time.....

Trevor

Old Times Revisited....

Well, it's about that time again. Here it is the last day of the month, and I once again am writing for all of you to read. I honestly did not mean for it to be the last day of the month like January, but nevertheless, here I am.

I'm sitting here at 1 in the morning, once again thinking about how much my life has changed in the last 4 months or so. It's so hard to believe that it's already been a 1/3 of a year since I moved out here. Time has flown by, and memories have been made. Of course, Clovis is always in the forefront of my mind. Especially at this time of year. This is the first year in 15 years that I haven't put on a jersey or a polo for Clovis High volleyball. I miss the team, and the gym more than words could describe. It kills me that I most likely will not get the chance to see them play even one match this season. I hope that they know that my heart is with them.

Things out here in Texas are going well. The club is right in the middle of the volleyball season, and doing well. I have learned so much in the short time that I've been here. Things that will stick with me for the rest of my career.

Last blog, I wrote about how I already have plans for the rest of my life, and though I being secretive about what that is, I am happy to inform everyone that progress is being made. With every passing day, the excitement I have for the time I can call my life and career "my own," grows exponentially. I thank everyone for all of their support so far, and for the future support I know you'll give me.

Also, I know that I have been secretive about my future plans, but I'm sorry..... I have another secret. But, it's one that will come to light a little sooner than that of my career plans. I have started a new project out here in Texas that does not have anything to do with my career, or present work. I am revisiting a part of my life that has long been neglected over the past several years. Though I won't specifically say what it is, I will say that I have spoken about it with one of my best friends several times in the past couple years. And though this is a solo project, I look forward to one day working with him again. (Love you Adam. You truly are a brother.) Hope that was enough of a hint for you guys.

Once again, thank you for every one's kind words and prayers over the last few months. I look forward to seeing everyone soon. I miss you and love you all.

Until next time....

Trevor

Just an update...

So, it's been 3 full months since I've moved to Texas. I feel like so much has happened, yet so much more to figure out. I am trying my best to live each day to it's fullest, and get the most out of my experiences out here. For my family that is worried about me, YES I've been making some friends. I love all the Dean's, Ubick's, and Lindstrom's! Though I've been having fun, and getting work done, I am most sad that I wasn't able to make it back out to Clovis for my grandpa's 100th birthday party. I'm pretty sure that I'm the only grandchild that wasn't able to make it back. But, I know that he understands. I can only hope that I live a life as full as his.

I've been doing a lot of thinking since I've been out here. It's definitely put some things in perspective. I have put a lot of thought into what I want to do for my actual "career". Even though I have figured it out, I am going to keep that a secret for everyone out there. I have it in the works already! I'm so excited! Be on the lookout for me making a name for myself.

I hope to see everyone from Clovis really soon. Guardians.... I hope to see you sooner than anyone else! I love you, Jenn and Brent! WE WILL ALWAYS BE GUARDIANS!!!!!

Take care everyone. Please keep in touch. I wanna know how everyone is doing. I love you all.

Until next time.....

Trevor

Good to See Everyone

So, since I've been back to Texas, I've had a lot of time to reflect on my Christmas return back to Clovis. I'm still missing everything about Clovis. First and foremost, I am so glad that I was able to see as many friends and family as I did. If I didn't get to see you, I am so sorry. I am trying to get a weekend sometime in the near future to come back to Clovis. (I know I've said it before, and I hope that everyone knows it's true, but Clovis will ALWAYS be my home.)

Although I am missing home, I am happy to be back at here, and getting work done. It's crazy, but I never thought that I would be looking forward to getting back to work, and I did start to anticipate it the last few days I was home. Though I'm not coaching a team, I feel like I am making a name for myself out here. Hopefully, making enough of a name for myself that I can eventually bring my talents and experience back to California.

To keep everyone updated on what's goin on out here, the club volleyball season is underway, and really heating up. We have 38 teams in our club and this weekend we have about 30 of them in a tournament. Because I am part of the full time staff with the club, I will have to run around all over the Houston area watching our teams in action. Gonna be crazy, but it's great experience for our players. The crazy thing is, for the next 4-5 months, I will only have a few weekends where I don't have a tournament that I'm running, or that I'm going to. The life of athletics though. This is what I live for.

I still don't have a car out here; just my motorcycle. Now, with the average temperature being around 65 degrees during the day out here, having a motorcycle doesn't sound like too bad of an option. The problem with that, is that out here, at the drop of a hat, the weather could change, drop an inch of rain in ten minutes, and then change back to the way it was. Kind of annoying when you're on the bike, but that's what I'm dealing with right now. So, needless to say, I'm on the lookout for a nice economical car or truck out here. Keep your fingers crossed for me!

Thank you for all of your support. I love and miss you all!

Until next time.....

-Trevor